Wednesday, June 15, 2005
school holidays is going to end soon. i dont know why.i'm having this bad feeling about something.it making me feels insecure about something. but i cant explain this feeling.it's really bad.and i just feel like locking myself in the room and stay there forever.weird! and i dont know what's going with this feeling. it just bad. sigh!
i'm losing my temper with my grandmother. sometimes. she just get me annoyed.sigh! i hate mood swings.
and there somethings in my head.it is in the past.i just hate people looking down on me.i hate it.i hate it when people thinks that i'm not up to it. hate it when people thinks i'm not up to that standard.and i feel like so much hatred that i wanted to kill that person.seriously,i'm going crazy thinking about this problem. it just in my heart. that much hate. anyway. i dont want to talk about it anymore.this feeling will just past. it just a feeling.right. it will go away.
and talking about scoldings. i've enough with it. it always the same scoldings.and everything.no changes and it kind of getting stupid and bored.right.and i'm thinking of someone who left me out in one english project and i'm thinking of what she say to me and how she puts the blame on someone and all the bad things she did. she told me it was her.she who get her into all these mess and bad things. she who lead her to become bad.and when all these stuff are in my head. i start to have a very bad headache and i start to have bad feelings.about losing someone.it like i feels so insecure about someone or something. i donno. i wish i have an answer to all my questions and everything i want to know. everything! i need someone to give me an answer from all these mess.someone who know everything to my questions.
guardian angel
