Sunday, November 06, 2005
ohwells, was it meant to end now ?
to think it hurts a lot thinking about you.
i tried to forget, i'm really tried.
your face lingers in my memory
as i struggle to free myself from this.
the whole day i was at home. i kept on telling my brother to study hard for his psle for next year, it does not even seems to brother him that its crucial for him to study hard for next year. he can plunge right into the well if he gets poor results. he is so dead! and to add on my mum is pining high hopes on him. both of my parents does not want him to go to mixed sch ! sighh! i dont know how he is going to survive and i'm going to wash my hands off his matter. he can go and kill himself and do whatever. i dont care! seriously, i dont mind being the only child left!
sighh, it meant to be a holiday. i'm suppose to be happy but i dont know why. the modd just was not in.hmmms, except for that particular day which is veronica brithday and that all ! if only he could be forgotten. if only! i wonder what should i get for my next year birthday ? i know it still far away but well, i could plan early and i wonder what job should i do? i have lots of things to think. like what will i be in the future, what will i do? i dont know! maybe it too early to plan now but it always good to start early.i think its good to start early. i remember when i was young, i wanted to be a lawyer and then a teacher and then a designer and now i want to be a carrer woman. hahas! is that how you spell carrer? i dont know . anyway, i think it cool to be one. everyday work and work and you get promotion and money. hahas, i'm not money-minded okays. then after that, you got the money, you go shopping and spend it all. hahas, too bad there no job where you can spent money and go shopping. hahas!
i'm tired, i want to sleep now.
