Wednesday, November 09, 2005
talking about being a good girl, changing for the sake of my parents being polite to them and everything, maybe i should just not even thought about this whole thing, it just so wrong to change for my mum. you know what, she just slapped me. fuck! i hate her, so what if you're my mum, does that gave you the right to hit and slap me, you've been baised all along, you love my brother more i know. cause what daddy loves me more that what you say.have you ever spare a thought for me, i dont want o levels english , i know as a parents, who does not want their own daughter to be smart to be sucessful. i know that you want me to take the o levels english is for my own good but so what. i dont want it, it's my desicions. if dad can understand, why cant you? and who are you to call my friends lousy. i really hate you. you really sucks and you know what, i rather you not born me out in this world. they say the mother is always the greatest cause what they born you out and it really painful but you know something, i did not ask you to born me out and i rather i was not born into this world.
if i ever could, take my life back if you want. you can kill me if you want, after all , i wish that i was not born into this world anyway. i hate you and i hate myself and my fucking life. this just sucks!
