Tuesday, November 01, 2005
went with my mum to the converse ware house sales. before going there, had a lot of disagreements, hated her like hell. and she was walking so slowly. i felt quite sad for treating her badly.i dont know why, i just treat her and my grandmother this way. although i love them a lot. hmmms, i remember the retreat. the priest say about the daughter treating the father badly and the father work so hard to earn money for the daughter to go to the school to study and the daughter was rude to him and later i cant remember what he say, but the last part was the father wanted to kill himself. and i cry, maybe cause i was gulity and i treated my dad badly.
hmmms, ohwells. i wonder what the person reading this would think? and what if my mum saw this or my dad but i doubt they will. even if they read this or did not have a chance to read. i just want them to know i'm sorry and i love them a lot. i really hope that they will be more understanding and forgive me for the rudness. but sometimes, i really cant stand my grandmother, she throw away my pins into the toliet bowl and so i ask her to go out and she insist on taking the pins and she still ask me whether i want it? goodness, how can it be use when it's throw to the toliet bowl. sighh. and she always washes my clothes and put them anywhere else. and she hangs my clothes outside. then when i have to go out, i cant find what i want to wear and i'm a very stubborn person if i want to wear that i cant change my mind and wear others. so my parents will always scold me and i will quarrel with them. sighh, maybe i should give in to her more. after all, she old and well. who know ten years later what might happen?
hmmms, the long long post about things i need to change. after all, next year i'm sec three. so i have to change and try them better(:
